My dear Jewish friend 22: Hot-water bottle prayer against stomach ache and fears

I pulled the hot-water bottle towards my aching body. A strong stomach ache had its grip on me since days. As the warmth started to ease my pain, my thoughts wandered towards you, my dear Jewish friend.

When the job opportunity to become a chaplain at the largest training facility for the German Federal Police became a reality, we were ripped apart and I was torn from the comfort of our unlikely friendship. The world was a different one back then. With strong democracies, which had stood strong against right-extremist thoughts, pandemic and a crisis in world economy on this and the other side of the Atlantic.

Protect me, o G´d, for I seek refuge in you.

The first words of psalm 16 resonated deeply within me. Protection and refuge from the quickly changing political and societal tides is what we need these days. While I was pondering about the beautiful words of the psalm, the antique pink heating pad in shape of an old hot-water bottle gave me some extra comfort. Presently, it seems as though the only thing left for me is to find warmth from outwit myself. Four years after I moved back to Germany it feels as if the world is falling apart. A shift to the extremes is apparently happening in your home country and I am fearing for the upcoming early elections in mine.

Protect me, o G´d, for I seek refuge in you.

Four years of teaching young Police cadets about democracy, enabling them to stand up for human rights – in contrary to the murderous Nazi regime, where police have been complicit with the unspeakable evil. This was the reason, why I had left New York to go to the center of power and make an impact to hinder such a murderous system from establishing itself again through education. May such hate and unspeakable crime never happen again. I gave it all. Teaching how to combat the rise of Antisemitism, combating Racist activities and standing up against hate in the name of human dignity and robust democratic basic rights.

Protect me, o G´d, for I seek refuge in you.

But numbers of Antisemitic hate are rising around the globe. The numbers in Germany alone are staggering! 2023 the huge number of 5.164 antisemitic hate crimes. 2024 until to the end of September 3.370 (see below).

Protect me, o G´d, for I seek refuge in you.

On Feb 23 the lower house of the Federal German Parliament will have an untimely election as our German government is falling apart. Some of it seems hurtfully familiar in history – no, I want to push back this terrible thought as far as possible…

But if worst comes to worse, will I have equipped my young police cadets to stand up for our basic rights and for human dignity? With any elected government they will have the duty to obey their commands and to enforce the legislation. No matter, if it is from the center, or G´d help us!, extremist right or left winged. Will they be courageous enough to stand strong and firm against their superiors or politicians, if their commands, their laws and regulations are against human dignity? This is what they promise in their oath. Time and time again I have outlined in lessons for numerous classes before their oath how important it is that they protect our laws and human dignity. I always remind them that the murderous Nazi-Regime had despised human dignity and murdered 6 million Jews and numerous others.

Protect me, o G´d, for I seek refuge in you…

… is a prayer I am saying many times a day. For you and for me as we brace for impact of what might come. I wish, I could flee into the arms of our unlikely and precious friendship – but we are miles and oceans apart. Therefore, it is this hot-water bottle prayer that eases some of the stomach and heart ache:

Lord and creator of all,

Baruch Atah Hashem,

our world is changing so fast. Antisemitism and hate is on the rise. Wars are raging in the Holy Land and Ukraine. Politics are leaning to the extremes and no one wants to reach across the isle.

I am scared and turn to you seeking your warmth that will soothe my pain like a hot-water bottle.

Protect us, o G´d, for we seek refuge in you.

Amen.

Every time I pull my antique pink hot-water bottle towards me, I will say this prayer and think of you, my dear Jewish friend.


(https://mediendienst-integration.de/desintegration/antisemitismus.html )

My dear Jewish friend 19: Important Alliances to combat Antisemitism and hate

The downpour of rain came steady and hard. As I excited the car and stepped on the sidewalk I pulled my Police cap as deep as possible into place and quickly made my way to the old church of St. Johannes in the center of Munich. Due to present renovations it was quite a challenge to find the entrance to this traditional Lutheran church, which was build in 1916. After placing my wet Police cap and jacket on the wardrobe I was warmly greeted by Dr. Philipp Hildmann, who would be inducted into his office as the director of the „Bayerisches Bündnis für Toleranz- Demokratie und Menschenwürde schützen“ (Engl.: Bavarian Alliance for Tolerance – Protecting Democracy and Human Dignity).

He had invited me to be part of the intercessory prayers at his introductory service on Dec 12. What an honour in times like these, where Antisemitic crimes are on the rise in Germany and around the world. Since the attack of the Hamas on Israel Oct 7 the unbelievable high number of 1100 incidents have occurred until Dec 21 in Germany (Source: Bundeskriminalamt). According to Holger Münch, the President of the Bundeskriminalamt the dimension in the area of ​​these crimes are new (Neue Zürcher Zeitung). He emphasized that Antisemitism increased on both the left and right spectrum, but was also imported. „Many people have come to our country from regions where Israel is seen as an enemy and where the idea prevails that Jews must be fought,“ said Münch (Source: Jüdische Allgemeine; translation MG). An important area to combat this terrible hate crime will therefore be education, where new members of our German society learn about our history and values, which have their highest expression in Democracy and human dignity.

The present developments show drastically how important it is to form strong alliances against Antisemitism, extremism and any form of hate. As a Police Chaplain involved in educating the next generations of police officers within the German Federal Police I hope to make a difference through the education I provide.

As Philipp stood at the altar surrounded by our new Bishop Christian Kopp and the Roman Catholic Bishop Dr. Bertram Maier, numerous representatives of the churches, government and institutions, my heart stopped for a beat as I prayed for this courageous man, who is the face of one of the most important alliances in Germany. His task will be a hard one in these unbelievable difficult times, but we as his partners will stand strong together with him. We will carry him through in times of trouble and need.

The weather on this day might have been barren outside of the church, but within it was warm and welcoming. As I excited the old building and quickly made my way to the car through the continuing downpour I knew: Philipp might experience many a challenge and most likely countless rainy days, but the people, institutions and organisations of the Alliance will keep him and anyone secure as we move forward to combat Antisemitism, extremism and hate in any form.

My dear Jewish friend 16: delivering a promise bit by bit – combating Antisemitism and racism through education

Tears ran down my cheeks. Hot and angry tears. It felt as if their trail was burning my skin. I remember well, when I had to break the news to you that I would be leaving the U.S. and returning to Germany. Our friendship was one of the most precious gifts I had been gifted with during our time in New York. Under your leadership we fed the hungry through the pantry of your synagogue and stilled the hunger of those, who had been hit hardest during the economic effects of the pandemic. It was on this day, that I promised to you that within my next call I would commit myself to fight Antisemitism and racism. I would infuse this commitment into the German Federal Police through education. Only a few months later, I started teaching young Police Cadets infusing the strong sense of commitment for Human rights, dignity and our German constitution, which was born as a democratic law out of the pain and death of millions.

Two years later, as I listened to the words of Dr. Borys Zabarko, my hand discreetly stroke my cheek down the same path the tears had taken over two years ago reminding me of the promise I had made to you. The auditorium was filled with 250 members of the German Federal Police. As Dr. Zabarko spoke about his experiences during the Holocaust, you could’ve heard a needle, if it would’ve dropped.

Dr. Zabarko had escaped the ghetto of Sharhorod as a child. After the Second World War he studied at the Chernivtsi University, and commenced his PhD at the Institute for History at the National Academy of Sciences of Ukraine in Kiev, where he received a PhD in 1971. He dedicated his whole career to combating Antisemitism and researching on the disaster of the Holocaust. The number of books he has written is impressive and he is at the forefront of research of the Holocaust in the Ukraine, gifting generations with his knowledge and commitment to combat this terrible heresy, which has cost millions of people their lives and has brought suffering over generations.

It was a twist of historical irony that he as a Ukrainian Jew was standing in front of a German audience, speaking about the horrible things which had happened through Nazi-Germany and its executive authorities. Now he had to flee his own country finding refuge where the perpetrators and terrible deadly heresy of Antisemitism had once installed a brutal system of death and catastrophe.

As he talked about the deadly role the police during the Nazi dictatorship had played, I held my breath and tried to swallow away the tears – the same hot tears of grief I had felt back then when I broke the news to you. Dr. Zabarko spoke about the massacre of Babyn Yar as the site of the largest massacre carried out by Nazi Germany’s forces during its campaign against the Soviet Union in World War II. It took place 29–30 September 1941, killing some 33,771 Jews in an industrial manner. He spoke about how the massacre was commenced with a mass ditch, in which line by line the victims fell through the hand of Sonderkommando 4a of Einsatzgruppe C, consisting of SD (Sicherheitsdienst) and SiPo (Sicherheitspolizei) men, the third company of the Special Duties Waffen-SS battalion, and a platoon of the No. 9 police battalion. As you can guess, a large number of these men had been police officers. While I glanced over the large number of listening police members and looked at the dark blue of my own police uniform, it felt as though not only the skin of my cheeks was set on fire. An important fire I hope others in the audience felt as well.

I am utmost blessed that the Leading Police Director understands my vision and calling. We share the same goal as we try to strengthen our democracy, standing up for human rights and combating Antisemitism, racism and any kind of exclusion through education and leading by example. There are so many obstacles in our way as we try to infuse these goals into the educational system of executive authority. Sometimes I am at the brink of giving up and the sacrifice of being ripped away from the comfort of our friendship seems to high of a cost as loneliness sometimes clouds my soul – but the shared goal of education within the German Federal Police and the promise I once made to you keep me going.

And I must admit: this remarkable day with Dr. Zabarko was in my eyes a living expression of the vision we are pursuing. It even found its outward expression as he signed the Golden Book of the City of Bamberg while Holocaust survivors, civil servants, politicians, and police officers were present.

I wish, you could’ve been here and experienced it first hand. I am delivering my promise to you bit by bit – with every new cadet being committed to combat Antisemitism, racism and other forms of hate. May it be a consolation across the miles as we are far apart, but united in heart and mind.

My dear Jewish friend 14: Inter-religious education and lessons to grow

After two public Christmas holidays, where we celebrated among our family, I headed back to work regenerated and full of hope despite the challenges on personal, professional, and political level.

For another year the Chanukah decorations – my small electric Chanukiah and the large wooden Dreidel from Israel – would rest in the large cupboard of my office. After placing the Chanukiah in front of a stack of Bibles longing to be used. Then, I carefully placed the Dreidel in front of it. The wooden art piece would forever remind me of a special lesson about Chanukah, inter-religious education, and own theological reflections on this Jewish celebration. As I slowly turned the dark Dreidel on its socket I remembered the astonished voice of a young police cadet.

But let me start with the lesson itself… : After the murderous crimes of World War II the number of Jews living in Germany presently is under 1% of the German population. Most of my police cadets have never had an encounter with Jews and only small knowledge about the living faith of Judaism. Therefore, during the festive season of Chanukah, I taught them about the history of this important festival showing them the Chanukiah and even playing a fun round of Dreidel. While I explained the historical background of your festival I could see that one police cadet sitting in the center of the class room looked very puzzled. He persistently raised his hand. I nodded, as I could feel the urgency of his question. „Mrs. Groß, please forgive my question, but I am confused. Are you Jewish?“ Now it was me being the astonished one. I set down the Dreidel on my desk. „No, I am not Jewish. But I have lived in New York for almost seven years. My children brought home many Jewish traditions. Some of my best friends are Jewish, and through Judaism I was able to understand a lot of my Christian faith.“ While the class then eagerly turned to playing a round or two of Dreidel, the question of the young police cadet stuck and evoked a deeper research on what Chanukah, Judaism and Christianity might have in common. Who would ever think, that an inter-religious lesson I had designed for my police cadets to help them with their ethical decision making, would help me to reach a deeper level of understanding of both faiths.

In the Christian Holy Scriptures we hear from Jesus celebrating most likely Chanukah:

At that time the festival of the Dedication took place in Jerusalem. It was winter, and Jesus was walking in the temple, in the portico of Solomon.

John 10:22-23 NRSV

The German Bible translation „Bibel in gerechter Sprache“ even directly speaks of Chanuka:

Damals fand in Jerusalem das Chanukkafest statt.

John 10:22 Bibel in gerechter Sprache

There is no further biblical proof, if Jesus celebrated Chanukah. But the reference seems very convincing to me and I will definitely add to my answer that Jesus was a Jewish Rabbi and most likely celebrated Chanukah like other Jews did.

With a soft push I closed the cabinet door, where the special objects of my teaching are stored. The Dreidel will forever remind me of this special lesson – by now I am convinced that I am challenged to grow as I teach as much as I challenge my young cadets to learn about other faiths, cultures, and festivals.

Love from Bamberg to my Jewish friend.